"Amazing love, oh what sacrifice,
the Son of God, given for me.
My debt He paid
and my death He died,
that I might live,
that I might live."
i have heard the medley of both "amazing love" songs by acapella praise several years back, and i must say that it was very lovely ;)
tonight, i say goodbye to a friend who has been faithful to me for more than 5 years. she who has been with me through hours of walking down the streets of kuala lumpur. she who has trudged the minnesotan snow with me one halloween night. she who has boosted my confidence on countless client meetings. she who has rejoiced with me on several weddings.
even in her last hour, she did not let me down. she made sure i was safe home before she breathed her last. i will remember her long after she is gone.
(pardon the melodramatics, i have just watched 300 with my friends :P )
i'm talking about my favorite pair of sandals, of course :P tonight, i saw that the soles were breaking apart and beyond repair. it's just sad, because i've grown attached to this particular pair. it's the first pair of sandals i've ever bought with my own money. you can say that i could just as easily buy a replacement, but shoe-shopping has never been easy for me. i hate shoes that can pass off as lethal weapons (death to stilettos!), so my choices are very limited. i hope i can find a suitable replacement soon, as i'm attending another wedding a few weeks from now.
i will surely miss my sandals. my next pair will have some big shoes to fill ;)
my latest craving, discovered when k.dei and i watched the free sugarfree concert in eastwood last january 13.
the different "flavors" of buko ni fruitas -- buko fruit salad (the ones i bought in paseo had strawberry and lychee), buko halo-halo, buko strawberry, buko mangga
here is a poem i wrote last year, at a major point in my life. and since i changed my blog title, i thought that this would make an appropriate "first" post.
sleepless
(5/21/2006)
i'm losing sleep over you
and i don't know what to do
you're an itch i can't scratch
a butterfly i can't catch
a dream that i want to come true
i'm losing sleep over you
and there's not much i can do
but to lie awake at night
wishing i may, wishing i might
i'm losing sleep over you
and there's nothing i can do
but to wait
and hope
and lose sleep
over you
i wore a short skirt some days ago. i was not in the mood to iron any slacks, and there was this skirt that my cousin gave me that i haven't worn ever.
i just found it amusing that guys seem to notice me more when i'm wearing a skirt. and i don't even have nice legs (blame it on genetics and the overly long lines in the Math building) ;) in 5 minutes, i had 3 taxis stop in front of me, when ordinarily it would take me around 7 minutes just to flag one. it seemed like i became a taxi magnet all of a sudden :P of course, i had to flag 3 taxis before one agreed to take me to the office (which was quite far from our house). gasoline and traffic were still more compelling than a girl in a short skirt. or maybe my charm wasn't enough :P
oh yeah, on my way home, the eyes of a driver in the tricycle stop followed my legs as i walked by :P
i am in the process of renovating my site. however, i'm also procrastinating (too many games to play), so please bear with me ;) now, if i can only figure out blogspot's new codes...
i had noticed some things that were different in the way our family prepared for and celebrated last Christmas:
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i did not buy a Christmas present for myself. ever since i got a job, i would always buy a present for myself on special occasions. i would even buy something for myself just because :P it was my way of pampering myself. last Christmas was different in that i only bought presents for my family, roommates and him. maybe i was not in the mood for any, since i was resigned to the fact that i could not have what i really wanted that time. :(
* 
i did not make the buko pandan salad for noche buena. it was a time-honored tradition that i was the one who made dessert on special occasions. well, i suppose i kinda did that time, since i prepared the ingredients (and ate a few strips of buko here and there), but it was my brother who mixed everything together. it was his first time to help out with the noche buena preparations, and it was really nice that he is actually volunteering to help. maybe it was time that somebody else carry on the tradition of making the dessert. ;)
* my sister's boyfriend joined us for noche buena. it was the first time that an "extension" joined us for the noche buena. it was unusual, but not really a biggie, though it made me wish i was celebrating noche buena with a specific "extension" at that time. ;)
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i treated my 15-year-old brother to a few hours of DotA. it was our first DotA game together. since it was Christmas, there weren't too many people in the internet cafes, so we were able to use some terminals in the internet shop several blocks away from our house. too bad that we did not know where my two nephews (ages 9 and 11) were playing that time. they left the house an hour earlier than us (it took me long to finish my bath :P ). i had wanted to play DotA with the boys for several months now. but i promised them that i will treat them to a DotA game or two if they make it to their class' top 10. by the way, my bro beat me in the first game, as i didn't know how to play Tiny. but i beat him in the next 2 games after that. ;)
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i brought home my ps2 karaoke revolution, and it was the first time my siblings played with it. it was surprising that they enjoyed it more than my ps2 dance dance revolution games. my brother and nephews were even singing the oldies like Jackson 5's ABC. :O
* i wasn't outside the house at the stroke of midnight on new year's day. i guess it was plain laziness on my part. i didn't want anything to do with firecrackers anyway, and the noise was making my ears hurt.
* 
most of my relatives didn't visit us on new year's day, as they used to do. i had hoped they would visit because i miss my neice/godchild. i learned that she and her mother were sick. also, one of my favorite cousins got married last year and was in australia with her husband, so she wasn't able to come. even my grandmother (my last surviving grandparent) wasn't able to visit. :(
i wonder if these things are signs of what is to come. things will inevitably change: my siblings and i will hopefully get married, have our own families, grow old. but i hope we will still celebrate special occasions, like Christmas, together as a family.
sugarfree is one of my favorite bands. their music reminds me of eraserheads (another favorite). their songs are melodious, though half won't give you an LSS. but the lyrics! the lyrics are something else. what i really, really like about them is that they are "singing my life with (their) words". so here are four years of my life, as told by sugarfree:
2003
2004
2005
2006
